June 28

6 weeks into modified bed rest, and I am starting to go a little stir crazy. I have been really trying to focus on the positive - rest, relaxation time, working from home - but the loneliness is getting to me. That and the difficulty of not sleeping well. Puts me on edge. I feel the anxiety creeping and it scares me. I know I can do this! I know I can give birth. But today, the not knowing when the Senator is coming, if she’s on the brink or I have more weeks, it’s really getting to me. I should acknowledge and move on. I acknowledge the fear, the fear of will I get through it, how I will get through it, to meet this little girl. And then there’s the fear once we bring her home. Totally unacknowledged. And what if the baby comes when Dr. Ross is out of town? I’ve been banking on her delivering. Haven’t met the o6 weeks into modified bed rest, and I am starting to go a little stir crazy. I have been really trying to focus on the positive - rest, relaxation time, working from home - but the loneliness is getting to me. That and the difficulty of not sleeping well. Puts me on edge. I feel the anxiety creeping and it scares me. I know I can do this! I know I can give birth. But today, the not knowing when the Senator is coming, if she’s on the brink or I have more weeks, it’s really getting to me. I should acknowledge and move on. I acknowledge the fear, the fear of will I get through it, how I will get through it, to meet this little girl. And then there’s the fear once we bring her home. Totally unacknowledged. And what if the baby comes when Dr. Ross is out of town? I’ve been banking on her delivering. Haven’t met the other two doctors. I guess you could say I have a case of the Mondays. .