Jen's Jewish New Year

So yesterday at 11:08PM Lilly Rose turned 8 weeks, hard to believe but its been a great ride so far. She's developing some facial expressions, such as lifting her right eyebrow, giving us some small smiles, and really just is a great person to be around. She's been cooing a lot more, at times, it sounds like she is saying hi. I like to think she is, so I say hi back. She's becoming more aware of her surroundings, tracking objects, people's voices, etc. And she's just fun to be around. Surrender to the goat, the mantra from my yoga class, is what I repeat to myself, if I find myself becoming frustrated. People tell us to enjoy each day with her, they fly by, was advice we got beforehand, and they sure do. They days can be long, but the months, years short (took that from a book).

And with that in mind, I decided (along with Mark's support and guidance) to resign from my job and be with Lilly. I knew I didn't want to go back full-time so I asked to go back part-time but that wouldn't work out for the Museum, so after meeting with my boss, I took a day to think it over, and then resigned. It feels right, this all came about at the time of the Jewish New Year, so it feels like this is a new chapter for me/for us. And it all started with the new year, so I took it as a positive sign. I had a great talk with my boss, he said he understood, he's got two daughters, 6 and 2, and he hates leaving them in the morning. His wife stays home with them. I journaled some and just tried to get a sense of what I wanted to do, even before Lilly I had been thinking about how I wasn't stimulated by my job, and I wasn't prepared for my priorities to shift once I had her. I guess you never can be until you do. So not sure what each day will look like. I'm hoping to get some structure nailed down. Regina's coming on Tuesday's so it looks like we'll ask her to come either 1-2 more days a week. For now, I'm looking into either volunteering with the library or at a school or seeking a part-time job. Something for adult interaction and stimulation. I would be lying if I said I wasn't nervous about this change, but it does feel right. I am excited to be able to spend time with her while she is young. Knowing myself, and my propensity for anxiety and susceptability to depression, I will need something. So that's what I am looking for. I will continue with the writing, though it turns out I wasn't able to get into the class. I went for the first two classes- loved it - but the professor wasn't able to add the three of us on the waiting list. So next semester.

So new ride. Following my heart. As with Lilly, will keep you posted on this new journey. So with the picture, we're resting up for the road ahead!